Change, feelings, friends, Life, love, Memories

Washed Away

*THIS POST WAS STARTED ON WEDNESDAY MARCH 23, 2011*

As the rain, sleet, hale and snowflakes hit my windshield, I begin to think about all the different experiences I’ve been through, about all of the friendships  I’ve made and lost, about my experiences and my recent revelations. The main thought I had that evening was CHANGE….

We tend to want to hold on to people, friendships, relationships, material things, jobs……. We know they arent the best for us but because we dont have the courage to let go and move on we would remain quiet about it and be unhappy, knowing that we’re just making things worse.

A few people have told me that I’ve changed, some said for the good, some said otherwise, but I say for the Good,  I’m sorry but my mentality of life should not be the same from 10 years before. I will be 30 on my next birthday, i should not have the same thoughts and goals from when I was 19.

So while I drove around having one of my “thinking sessions” I’ve come to the realization that all of my doubts about changing my old ways of thinking, living, and loving, were being washed away. The people and places I used to associate myself  with were being washed away.

And GUESS WHAT…….. I dont miss any of it! <huge smile 🙂 >

That storm washed away everything I DIDNT need in my life and made way for a new season…….. WHAT ARE SOME THINGS IN YOUR LIFE THAT NEED TO BE WASHED AWAY?

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Memories, Technology

GO GO GADGET BRITTANY

(Long Live Windows Mobile Phones!)

For all that know me, know that I love gadgets. Especially anything that deals with media; cell phones, video consoles, mp3 players, you name I have it. But you will be surprised to know that out of all my gadgets, my windows mobile phone is my prized possession.

When I heard that Microsoft was launching their Windows Phone 7 in NYC on October 11, 2010, I was super excited. Being a huge fan of Windows-based phones since practically their first one, (Below is my first windows-based phone), I Knew I had to be a part of the launching. Unfortunately, I was unable to attend the launching; but I did view it live online.

The Windows Phone series has come a long way since it launched over 10 years ago. I remember when there weren’t any sms messages or a camera, wifi or Bluetooth.  Now you can connect with friends instantly on your home screen, upload photos to various social networks, etc.  Now with various mobile development sites, you can even put different operating systems such as android, meego, linux, and Windows Phone 7 on your windows mobile 6.5 phones. Below is my HTC HD2 running Android 2.2. These abilities are limited on the “other” types of smartphones.

Windows Phones have come a long way, i can’t wait to try out the new Windows Phone 7. I’m still checking out all that my HD2 can do. This is why Windows Phones will always be the Originator =)

feelings, friends, intimacy, Life, love, Memories, poetry

Gotta Get Next To You

Love at first sight, nah I guess it was really lust
Too many eyes and ears to voice my feelings, not knowing who to trust
You were so fine, and smelled so good, huge plus
I gotta get next to you, oh yes, I must
I’m gonna make my move, no turning back from this,
All I really wish, is to be laced by those lips, With a juicy kiss…..
…….just what I expected, like dots we connected,
That kiss was bliss, forgot about our lives being so hectic
Hopefully we can turn this into more than just a side thing
A kiss turning into love, no longer a fling
But until then, I’ll just reminisce about our little time together
A short moment of passion, will remain in my mind forever…

feelings, Life, love, Memories, poetry

Heaven’s Angels– Bin Of Memories (Part 2)

Its been 13 years since my Brother -n-Law Larry and my 14 month old nephew Chad (My sister’s husband and son) passed away (July 15,1998). To this day it still pains me and I think about them everyday. I often wonder about what life would be like if they were still here: Larry with a super nice car blasting his music and having even better gadgets than me, lol. Chad would be 14, probably taller than me, playing basketball…..

I cant help to imagine but I know the longer i think about it, the sadder I become…..

Not too long after they passed i wrote a poem about Chad for his 2nd birthday May 6, 1999. I think I was 17 years old. I even did a poem on video for my T.V. Production class in high school.

So Im posting to share with you “Heaven’s Angels (A Nephew Of Mine)”….. LOVE YOU ALWAYS CHAD & LARRY SEGERS……Heaven’s Angel (A Nephew of Mine)

Heaven’s Angel is Cheerful, Joyful

The Sweetest Child you can find

Its no wonder Heaven’s Angel is a Nephew of Mine

He was 14 months Old

And bringing joy to each and every soul

with his cute little smile

and his Heart of pure gold

with soft braids like Bone Thugs

And resembling both his mom and dad

He’s Heaven’s Angel

And his name is “Baby Chad”

God’s most precious Angels

come once in a lifetime

Heaven’s Angel is “Baby Chad”

And he is a Nephew of Mine

feelings, friends, Memories, Throwbacks

My Music, My Life

Music has always been a part of my life. Growing up in a church where my grandfather was the founder and pastor, my aunts, cousins and sister were singers and my late father who played the organ, I had no choice but to embrace music.My father taught a lot of people how to play the keys like my older sisters and brothers. Unfortunately, he passed when I was five months old so never got to hear him play growing up. But how ironic is it that two of my good friends learned how to sing and play the keys from their late mentor, who was taught by my father, Small world, right?

I remember the first time I knew I had some singing skills…I was like nine, ten years old. I would run this same cassette tape – Voices “Yeah Yeah Yeah”. I knew I drove my brothers and sisters crazy! Lol, I even wrote a song called, “No,No,No”. That was the 1st of many songs, poetry and short stories that were to come.

It wasn’t until about 2 years later that I let my friends hear my skills. I was roller-skating with two of my good friends Tamika & Ta-Sheeba and we started singing “Weak” by SWV (Sisters With Voices). Ever since then it was has been nothing but music, music and music.

All throughout Junior High School and High School, I was a part of choirs,  singing groups, and plays. You name it, I’ve done it, including an audition video for Apollo Amateur Night with my friends in the 5th grade. (Real Love – Mary J.)

I was also in a gospel group that just recently disbanded. One of the songs we had (my fav- Total Praise), is attached to this entry. (I’m leading the chorus….) . Even though things didn’t go the way we wanted them to go in the group, it was still a part of my life and I actually still have a connection to the songs….

Though I don’t write songs like I used to, I still sing with my church’s choir, and 2 community choirs.  Music will always be a part of my life and when I have children I will definitely share my love for music with them and hopefully it will be a part of their lives too.

feelings, friends, intimacy, love, Memories, poetry, Throwbacks

Bin Of Memories (Part 1)

While looking through my bin full of my old writing notebooks, I started looking though one of the books. I remember this book the most because it was 2001 and I just moved back from Virginia. I wasn’t quite sure what my next move would be, so I began writing my thoughts and other random things in this book.  I came across a poem I wrote about someone I was dating. To this day this person is a very close friend of mines. I don’t know why this poem stuck out the most when I was looking through the book but I’ve always liked it and so did most of my friends…..I think I got skills lol. So enjoy because this is one of many…..

Sweet Sensation

The way you look at me

The way you hold me

The way you whisper in my ear

The way you tell me how much you love me

The way you show me how much you care

The way we talk on the phone

The way we cuddle when you and I are alone

The way you make me feel

The way our love seems so unreal

The way you wrap your arms around my shoulders

The way I put my head on yours

The way you rub my body

The way I yearn for more

The way you invade my thoughts

The way I want for you to invade me

The way my inner thighs tingle

The way I want you physically

The way I dream about

The way it will be

The touch, the feel, the Sweet Sensation of you inside of me

The smell of your scent

The smell of mine

The smell of our scents together as they intertwine

Our moaning, our panting, our love making, so tender

Passion too good to be true

A dream I want to remember

I can’t wait for the day

That I get to experience you

The way I want to make it known

That I want this dream to come true

Brittany G. Wiggins  (Late 2001/Early 2002)