Change, feelings, Life, love

Anticipating

40 weeks…….10 (not 9) months of waiting. Anticipating the day I get to see your face….the day I get to hold you in my arms for the first time. From the moment I found out I was carrying you I knew you were a blessing. My little blessing……. I dont know how many more hours or days I have to wait until you finally make your debut, but just know that you have a big family thats ready to spoil you.  You have a mommy that can’t wait to teach you so many things: how to walk, talk, how to sing, reading, writing and most importantly about God 🙂

This is just a little note to let you know I’m waiting and ready…..just  take it easy on me though on your way out Miss Skylah Julisse lol  🙂

Love your Beautiful Mother

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Change, feelings, friends, Life, love, Memories

Washed Away

*THIS POST WAS STARTED ON WEDNESDAY MARCH 23, 2011*

As the rain, sleet, hale and snowflakes hit my windshield, I begin to think about all the different experiences I’ve been through, about all of the friendships  I’ve made and lost, about my experiences and my recent revelations. The main thought I had that evening was CHANGE….

We tend to want to hold on to people, friendships, relationships, material things, jobs……. We know they arent the best for us but because we dont have the courage to let go and move on we would remain quiet about it and be unhappy, knowing that we’re just making things worse.

A few people have told me that I’ve changed, some said for the good, some said otherwise, but I say for the Good,  I’m sorry but my mentality of life should not be the same from 10 years before. I will be 30 on my next birthday, i should not have the same thoughts and goals from when I was 19.

So while I drove around having one of my “thinking sessions” I’ve come to the realization that all of my doubts about changing my old ways of thinking, living, and loving, were being washed away. The people and places I used to associate myself  with were being washed away.

And GUESS WHAT…….. I dont miss any of it! <huge smile 🙂 >

That storm washed away everything I DIDNT need in my life and made way for a new season…….. WHAT ARE SOME THINGS IN YOUR LIFE THAT NEED TO BE WASHED AWAY?

feelings, friends, intimacy, Life, love, Memories, poetry

Gotta Get Next To You

Love at first sight, nah I guess it was really lust
Too many eyes and ears to voice my feelings, not knowing who to trust
You were so fine, and smelled so good, huge plus
I gotta get next to you, oh yes, I must
I’m gonna make my move, no turning back from this,
All I really wish, is to be laced by those lips, With a juicy kiss…..
…….just what I expected, like dots we connected,
That kiss was bliss, forgot about our lives being so hectic
Hopefully we can turn this into more than just a side thing
A kiss turning into love, no longer a fling
But until then, I’ll just reminisce about our little time together
A short moment of passion, will remain in my mind forever…

feelings, friends, intimacy, Life, love, poetry, Stress

This Race…..

Not up to par, hate this feeling of depression,
Constant thoughts repeat in my mind like an obsession.
WHAT SHOULD I DO? Decisions that need to be made,
Things that shouldn’t be a priority overload and explode my time like a grenade.
Gotta get to the “prize” at the end of this race,
But im letting obstacles I face, take place and slow down my chase.
I’ll make it to the finish line but I gotta stay focused on what really matters right now.
This side mess will only spread, ”stay focused B”, I tell myself, but then I think “How?”
But nevertheless I won’t stress and do what I gotta do,
Because I’ll be the one with the “prize” once this race is through…

-Ms. Brittany ~~~~Written 8/18/2010

Philippians 3:14 (King James Version)

“I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.

feelings, friends, Memories, Throwbacks

My Music, My Life

Music has always been a part of my life. Growing up in a church where my grandfather was the founder and pastor, my aunts, cousins and sister were singers and my late father who played the organ, I had no choice but to embrace music.My father taught a lot of people how to play the keys like my older sisters and brothers. Unfortunately, he passed when I was five months old so never got to hear him play growing up. But how ironic is it that two of my good friends learned how to sing and play the keys from their late mentor, who was taught by my father, Small world, right?

I remember the first time I knew I had some singing skills…I was like nine, ten years old. I would run this same cassette tape – Voices “Yeah Yeah Yeah”. I knew I drove my brothers and sisters crazy! Lol, I even wrote a song called, “No,No,No”. That was the 1st of many songs, poetry and short stories that were to come.

It wasn’t until about 2 years later that I let my friends hear my skills. I was roller-skating with two of my good friends Tamika & Ta-Sheeba and we started singing “Weak” by SWV (Sisters With Voices). Ever since then it was has been nothing but music, music and music.

All throughout Junior High School and High School, I was a part of choirs,  singing groups, and plays. You name it, I’ve done it, including an audition video for Apollo Amateur Night with my friends in the 5th grade. (Real Love – Mary J.)

I was also in a gospel group that just recently disbanded. One of the songs we had (my fav- Total Praise), is attached to this entry. (I’m leading the chorus….) . Even though things didn’t go the way we wanted them to go in the group, it was still a part of my life and I actually still have a connection to the songs….

Though I don’t write songs like I used to, I still sing with my church’s choir, and 2 community choirs.  Music will always be a part of my life and when I have children I will definitely share my love for music with them and hopefully it will be a part of their lives too.